In Loving Memory of Madisyn Renae Lee
~August 2nd, 2007~
The footprints above are Madisyn's, Candice and Nate's daughter. Such a beautiful precious little girl that was gone way too soon.
Memoir written by Candice Lee:
I found out in December of 2007 that I was pregnant with my first child. I was so excited. I was only sick once during the first trimester. My pregnancy was great. I never got sick, the baby was growing fine. I found out at 20 weeks that I was having a girl. I named her Madisyn Renae. It was also then when I started going to see a perinatologist. I had to go all the way to Richmond to see this doctor. He was wonderful. I was going once a week to see him and right after that I would go and see my regular OB in Fredericksburg. Every visit was perfect. When the doctor in Richmond started the bio physical profile, it was really cool. I got to see Madisyn go from a close hand to an open hand. It was one of the best highlights of my pregnancy.
My original due date was August 13th. The doctor decided to induce my labor on August 5th. On July 31st I woke up and wasn't feeling Madisyn moving. I didn't think anything of it. By early afternoon I still hadn't felt Madisyn move. At that time both my mom and my husband both told me that I should go to the doctors. I called the doctors and they couldn't get me in, so they told me to go straight to the hospital. I went to the hospital and had to sit and wait for them to get me a room. I still hadn't felt Madisyn move. It felt like I was waiting forever before they came and got me. Once they came and got me, I had a sick feeling in my stomach. My mom had just gotten there when the nurse came in with the doppler to find the baby's heartbeat. I knew when the nurse asked me where do they normally find the heartbeat at, that something was really wrong. I think at that moment I went into shock. The nurse said to me, I am going to get the doctor to come up and bring the sonogram machine in. The doctor finally got there and rubbed the wand across my stomach where the heart was suppose to be beating and there was nothing. I knew then without anybody saying anything to me that my little perfect angel had died. It was the worst day of my life. I had so many people come in and talk to me about what options Mary Washington had to offer. It was very overwhelming. I remember thinking to myself is this really happening to me. How can you carry a baby for 9 months and then your baby die on you. My husband finally got to the hospital and his first words to me were tell me it's not true; tell me you are lying to me. It was so sad. I told him, I wish I could tell you I am lying to you.
The doctor came in and started to medicine to induce my labor. I was in labor for 3 days. Finally on August 2nd at 2:39 Madisyn was born weighing in at 7lbs 3 ozs. I got to keep Madisyn for as long as I wanted to. One of the greatest nurses who happens to care for the babies that die, Tammy Ruiz bathed Madisyn and clothed her and we had a professional photographer come in and take pictures of her. I now feel that pictures are so very, very important. After getting home from the hospital, I got a chance to talk with Tammy over the phone. Without her and the two amazing friends I met through the support group, I would be lost.
An individual forum was created to remember Madisyn Renae Lee.
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